Die Qual des Entscheidens

Man sollte meinen mit dem Sternzeichen Waage sei ich ausgeglichen, wisse, wie und wo ich stünde, und könnte demnach Entscheidungen zwar vielleicht nicht aus dem Bauche heraus treffen, mich doch aber zumindest recht zügig für eine Seite entscheiden. Wer mich jedoch schon etwas länger – oder einfach besser kennt, wird bei diesem ersten Satz bereits laut gelacht haben. Zumal ich nicht an Astrologie glaube; ich fand die Analogie einfach nur sehr passend und will sie deshalb noch etwas ausreizen. 
Also, ich bin nicht sehr entscheidungsfreudig, im Gegenteil. Nicht nur grüble ich teils endlos über das Für und Wider jeder größeren Entscheidung herum, ich wechsle teils auch nach kurzer Zeit die Seite. Mal, weil sich mein Standpunkt gerade (sprich für diesen Moment, denn dies kann durchaus mehrfach vorkommen) geändert hat, oder auch, weil ich mit meiner Wahl nicht mehr zufrieden bin. 

Soziologisch betrachtet könnte man das als Bindungsangst bezeichnen und dem will ich nichtmal widersprechen. Psychologisch wäre es wohl eine Angst, Verpflichtung einzugehen oder sonst etwas. Ich will darüber gar nicht tiefer drüber nachdenken (sagte er nach drei Absätzen …). 

Um also endlich auf den Punkt zu kommen (und dann wieder doch nicht):

Seit Jahren “konsumiere” ich Unterhaltungsmedien fast ausschließlich auf Englisch. Bücher, Filme, Serien, Videospiele. Selbst Nachrichten, soziale Netzwerke oder die Spracheinstellung meiner Technik ist für den größten Teil auf Englisch. Und doch bin und bleibe ich muttersprachlich Deutscher (auch an meiner Nationalität wird sich nichts ändern, aber DAS Thema ist noch komplizierter). 

Während ich also mit Deutsch aufgewachsen bin und es im “realen” Umfeld auch hauptsächlich spreche, findet mein digitales Leben fast ausschließlich auf Englisch statt. Und nun also meine Frage, die ich mir seit Wochen und Monaten immer wieder stelle und die jedes Mal anders aussieht:

Wie soll ich mich selbst und meine Gedanken in einem größeren Rahmen ausdrücken? Ob Reviews (auch hier ein Entscheidungsproblem meinerseits: der, das oder die Review?), eigene Geschichten oder Videos auf Twitch und YouTube: wähle ich meine Natur oder meine “Erziehung”? 

Beides habe ich ausprobiert – mit mehr oder weniger Erfolg. Die letzte Gewchichte, an der ich geschrieben habe, war auf Englisch, weil ich diverse Zitate aus Shakespeares Romeo und Julia einbauen wollte und ich mich weder zu einem Sprachenmix noch zu übersetzten Zitaten bringen konnte. 

Meine Reviews sind dank KRYSCHEN zu nahezu 100% auf Deutsch (ausgenommen sind die wenigen englischen hier) und meine Let’s Plays und Streams? Eine bunte Mischung aus beidem. Englisch, weil ich die Sprachausgabe meiner Spiele immer auf Englisch (also meist dem Original) habe und es potenziell mehr Zuschauer anlocken könnte. Deutsch, weil ich mich leichter tue, frei zu reden und zu damit die “Qualität” etwas höher ist. 

Ein Kompromiss wäre ein deutscher Kommentar mit englischer Sprachausgabe (wie bei meinen paar Assassin’s Creed: Unity– und Final Fantasy XIV-Videos), aber wirklich glücklich bin ich damit auch nicht. Einen weiteren Versuch davon werde ich morgen (Sonntag, 14:00 Uhr) mit meiner Fortsetzung von Witcher 3-Stream wagen. 

Die andere Lösung wäre, einfach besser beim Kommentieren auf Englisch zu werden, was nur geht, wenn ich mehr übe …

Für den Moment werde ich wohl weiter zweigleisig laufen und austesten, was mir selbst besser gefällt und was mir mehr Spaß macht. Denn lustlose Videos sind wohl das Letzte, was YouTube und Twitch brauchen. 
Nicht, dass ich mich damit für irgendetwas wirklich entschieden hätte, aber das Thema hatten wir ja jetzt zur Genüge ;)

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Posted by on November 7, 2015 in buch, deutsch, rezension, spiel, Uncategorized


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Streaming on Sunday!

So, just a quick heads-up, as my initial plan was cancelled.

I’ll be streaming The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt this Sunday, November 1. Stream will start around 1pm CET (that’s noon GMT).

Despite having already played something over twenty hours of the game, I’ll actually start over completely. This is mostly due to the fact that I’ve forgotten most of the story and the controls, so it couldn’t hurt to get through the tutorial once more.

I’ll be playing on my PlayStation 4 with the Hearts of Stone expansion (not that this would change anything for some time).

Stream can be found here at Commentary will be in (not perfectly fluent^^) English as will the game. Length of the stream is not yet clear, with some pauses in between, maybe two or three hours.

Hope, you’ll hang around a bit :) Stream will be available on YouTube next week in several parts, though!

See you then!

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Posted by on October 29, 2015 in game


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Managing time is hard

As my current job comes to a close and I get back to my old, regular book selling one, I one myself in a position I haven’t been in since January: I have idle time at home. For the better part of the last nine months, I have been on the road travelling through the country coaching my fellow coworkers and now I’m heading “home” to my old store.

So, what to do with all that time I now have and actually being at home in my flat? Well, finally getting to play all the games I “missed” this year, for one, and of course playing those that come out this holiday season. Then, the KRYSCHEN emag finally gets me back in full swing and I’m now catching up with my GamesCom articles, which should be online early November – which I know is very late but work comes first. Lastly, in terms of my “online persona”, I’ll finally start to seriously try out this whole YouTube and Twitch thing, meaning an actual schedule with planned streams and concurrent content on my account. Which honestly is both exciting and scary at once. But one has to start somewhere, right? Commentary will mostly be in English, with maybe one or two play throughs or let’s plays in German mixed in between.

Starting November (the 1st, actually) I’ll plan to stream both Metal Gear Solid V: The Phantom Pain (continuing my progress so far) and a complete new save of The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt – despite already having played about 23 hours in my current run. But I’ve forgotten so much about the story and the controls that I might as well start over (again).
In addition to both streams, which should find their way to my channel as well, I’ll have a LP of both Pillars of Eternity (including The White Marsh expansions) and Divinity: Original Sin: Enhanced Edition on there as well. Which is a lot of content and a lot of work, but I think I’ll handle it. Still, keep in mind that I have a day job, which is super-busy during the holiday season, so there might be gaps despite all efforts ;) No promises, just me trying to plan – which as soon of my friends know might not be my strongest suit.

So, see you after that spooky Halloween night. I’ll keep you posted when the stream will likely start!

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Posted by on October 21, 2015 in game


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It has been awful quiet….

First of all, my apologies. I’ve been “slacking” around in terms of internet stuff quite a lot lately and apart from the occasional retweet and my own thoughts, Even my two Let’s Plays on YouTube stopped immediately after they begun, which is a real shame. Overall, I have been reaaaaal quiet in the last…two months? I’m sorry for that and will try to explain a bit, what’s going on in my life.

As I might have mentioned one way or another, I’m travelling around Austria a lot these past months and apart from all the travel time involved (the longest trip took around six hours!) I’m working over-time quite extensively which cuts right into any spare-time I could have in all these cities. So, if and once I’m home, I mostly do the laundry, eat, watch some YouTubers oder Twitch-streamers and sleep. And that’s basically it. Seldom I have the energy or time to play something by myself (I got to play like three hours of MGS since Friday night and actually restarted Ground Zeroes). Not to mention try and record something to be put on YouTube. I mean, I know I’m still pretty bad at commentating and the whole “Let’s Play” thing in general but I’d like to have at least some kind of energy and concentration in those videos ;)

So, lots of stress for me, not much time at home and I’m still enjoying what I’m doing, which is great. Of course, I’m looking forward to not being on the (rail)road all the time and spent more than 12 days per month at home. To just sit down at night and play several hours of my favourite games just because I can. Because I’m not exhausted and don’t have to get up at six in the morning. Also I miss doing sport. So like, real-life workouts. I’m sure, I’ve gained about twenty to thirty pounds since the start of the year and I really don’t like that.

Don’t get me wrong, It’s all very exciting and fun to teach other people stuff, to see how they work and how the customers are in other towns…But after a while, I could really use a break. And with me going to GamesCom on my vacation, “break” isn’t really the right word for that time. And heck, I still haven’t finished half of the articles about the convention and it has been already a month since then…

Maybe I just should stop complaining and get to work ;) For now, though, “real work” first and maybe afterwards a bit of “hobby work”…

On the plus side: I’ll be back in my old job starting November, so: right on time for the Christmas madness and not tooo far of. And I still have one week left of vacation, so….About seven weeks. With a break in the middle. That’s okay. I can manage that :)

And after that? Well, recharging my batteries and full-on attack on YouTube, the KRYSCHEN online magazine and all those juicy social networks ;) And maybe read. And sleep. And stuff. Lots of stuff!

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Posted by on September 6, 2015 in english, life, meta


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Strawpolling my next character’s class (FFXIV)

So, I know that it isn’t really that important (as you can play ANY role and job and class and whatever) in Final Fantasy XIV as soon as you hit Level 10 – so, after maybe two to three hours of solid gameplay and leveling. And I already have several characters in the game. I actually started a Let’s Play with a female Miqo’te tank not too long ago (the playlist with the first five videos can be found here).

Buuuuuut, I actually wanted to play as the new race implemented in Heavensward, the Au Ra and I just got that expansion last weekend, sooo I want to “start over”, kind of. Meaning, I’ll still play my trusted black mage on Shiva (he’s Level 54, you just don’t “trash” a character like this ;) ). But yeah, I actual want to start a let’s play or just stream the game a bit and that’s easier with a new character than an old one. And it serves as a refresher for me concerning the earlier tales of the game.

And yeah: after getting back into it, I’m just a “bit” addicted to the game again, so I want to play it as much as possible x)

Sooo, if you would be so kind as to help me decide WHAT type of character I should play, I’d really appreciate a vote


to decide on the MAIN job/class the character should have. This would also decide the starting city so choose wisely ;)

And if you want to play with my old character (Aiden Kestrel) or my for now unnamed new character, just leave a message, tweet me or just send a tell ingame ;)

See ya!

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Posted by on July 28, 2015 in english, game


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Vacation incoming!

It’s summer and therefore high time for a good long stress-free vacation somewhere nice without hords of people around me, just laying in the sun maybe reading and just doing nothing productive.

Yeah, no. After a two-years hiatus I’ll return to GamesCom in Cologne this year and will spent at least three days in gigantic halls with several thousand people. And all we’ll do is stand in line and wait to play or just see a glimpse of the games that will come out somewhere between the next several months or next years. It’s madness, crazy, hilariously busy and stressfull and I just love it. Nowhere else (at least in Europe) will you find sooo many people being that enthusiastic about a ten to twenty minute demo of something.

So, apart from standing in line, what’s the plan for me in Cologne? Doing some work for of course, after I neglected both writing and editing for the eMAG for quite some time now… Work is kinda crazy busy right now ;) Apart from that? Nothing I could talk about too much right now as not everything is fixed as of now. And then…

GamesCom does also mean meeting friends both in and around the convention and I’m really looking forward to that, too. As cool as living in Vienna may be (and the city is great and I’ve made some reaally great friends here), there are still several people I really miss and being in Cologne gives me the opportunity to meet at least some of them :)

And after that, the high German north and my mum’s calling for me, so at least the second part of my vacation – hopefully – will be spent as it should be: doing nothing.

Apart from spending time with her, maybe visiting even more people I haven’t seen for like ages, playing videogames (hey there, PS Vita ;) ) and reading.

So, a bit over two weeks now and I’m off to Germany – really can’t wait :) And until then: more “real” work, maybe a biiiit video games and maybe even me streaming(?). We’ll see ;)

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Posted by on July 16, 2015 in english, life, work


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It has been FINAL-ly announced!

Roughly ten years after Square Enix trolled showed the world the opening cinematic of Final Fantasy VII as a tech demo to demonstrate the power of the then upcoming PS3, the trolling, stalling and asking is finally over.

Final Fantasy VII will be remade. Completely and for PS4 (and XBox One and maybe even PC?!). The new trailer is….well, watch for yourself (if you haven’t already):

It’s not the same cinematic and Square Enix hinted at possible alterations both to depth of the story as to the gameplay mechanics. At the end, they didn’t say much. Which is good, because the game is still in development and is still yeeears in the future. But: It’s coming and I’m excited to pieces.

In the end, it’s Final Fantasy VII. It shaped my youth like millions of gamers world-wide. Cloud, Tifa, Barret, Sephiroth and all the others are legends among all the video game characters and the game itself is considered as one of the (and by some THE) best RPG of its time – and well beyond. I can hardly wait for any other news concerning it’s well…production and I’m definitely in favour of more or less any changes they want to make. Important for me are the characters, the world, the soundtrack and the overall story. And nothing about that will change in a mayor way. They’ll maybe deepen it, explain some plot points better (or at all) and – maybe? – even include elements of the Compilation of Final Fantasy VII – meaning Advent Children, Before Crisis, Crisis Core and Dirge of Cerberus. THAT would be even more perfect but yeah. Mostly wishful thinking by me.

Educated guesses or actual fact presentation have to wait a while longer. But once more: It’s a remake of Final Fantasy VII. I really don’t care how long I have to wait for it ;)

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Posted by on June 17, 2015 in english, game


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